Demi Lovato Talks Dark Past: "I Didn't Think I Would Make It to 21"

Demi Lovato Talks Difficult Past: "I Didn't Think I Would Make It to 21"
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Demi Lovato may be a strong, confident woman now, but she’ll never forget the difficult past that got her here.

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In a candid interview with American Airlines’ inflight magazine American Way, the 23-year-old singer opened up about her past with drugs, alcohol and eating disorders this time.

Lovato, who graces the magazine’s July 2016 cover, explains that she was on a destructive path, abusing OxyContin, cocaine and other harmful substances. “I lived fast and I was going to die young,” she said. “I didn’t think I would make it to 21.”

In 2010, the "Stone Cold" singer checked into rehab for three months, where she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and was being treated for bulimia. In 2013, she checked into a sober house, and remained there for about a year to deal with her drug addiction issues. She explains it got so bad that she “couldn’t go without 30 minutes to an hour without cocaine.” The magazine reveals that the star still attends Alcoholics Anonymous meetings, even more than four years after having her last drink.

Aside from her addiction issues, Lovato shared a bit about her battle with body image, explaining that both her mother and grandmother struggled with bulimia. “Hopefully my kids won’t have it, but it’s kind of like addiction,” she said. “It’s hereditary.”

Now, Lovato’s difficult past motivates her every move. “I didn’t go into treatment thinking, ‘OK, now I’m going to be an inspiration,’” she explained. “At times I was resentful for having the kind of responsibility, but now, it’s really become a part of my life. It holds me accountable.”

Check the singer’s IG, and you’ll find her kicking butt in the gym, spreading powerful messages of love, and inspiring her followers to always do their best.

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"When I have meet-and-greets, I can't tell you the amount of times that girls will show me their arms covered in scars or cuts," Lovato explained. "They'll tell me, 'You helped me get through this. Because of you, I stopped self-harming,' or 'I got sober.' Hearing those things gave my life new meaning."